2019 Round Up-Top Ugly Cry Books

I don’t know if there are going to be 10 or not, so this is probably just going to be a 1 part post. For me, an ugly cry book is different from a book that makes me cry. There are some books that will give me tears because there is something sad going on, a break up, a death, so on and so forth. Generally, they last for a couple of minutes, and they are just tears running down my face. An ugly cry is just that, really ugly. Full on tears, snot running out of my nose, sobs, the whole 9 yards. These are the reads that make my husband ask me if I’m OK. He’s learned to accept the answer that it’s just an ugly cry book. So, here are some of the books that made me ugly cry this year. There are some that I’ve already mentioned on other lists that gave me ugly cries, Nicky James’ Long Way Home and Eva Dresden’s Broken, so they are just getting Honorable Mentions here. So, let’s get on with the ones that made it, shall we?

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Nicolina Martin-Redemption

Redemption is part of Nicolina’s Russo Saga, and is its own Duet with Absolution. (Expect to see that one show up tomorrow or Wednesday.) Anyway, no matter what the title says, there isn’t a lot of redemption going on in this book. This is the story of Christian and Kerry. Kerry is just a nice, sweet woman who happened to be working at a childcare center where a mobster’s son went. When she asked him a question, he sent Christian after her. When we first met Christian, in an earlier book, I really liked him. I didn’t by the end of this book. In fact, I downright fucking hated him. When Nicolina read my GR review on in, she asked me what my ugly cry moments were, and there were moments, not just a moment. Because it is a duet, it is a cliffhanger, but the second one is already out, so there’s that.

Addison Cain-Ravaged Captive

Ravaged Captive is the 4th book in Addison’s Wren’s Song books. They are Omegaverse and RH. All of the books have made me cry, but this one really made me cry because everything started to really fall apart. Caspian, Toby, and Kieran are at each other’s throat, Wren has been tossed out and thought dead, and the doll is in the way. I think that it was the addition of the doll that really got to me. I expect that the next one will also give me an ugly cry. Sooooooon.

Anna Wineheart-The Pretense

Anna is one of my favorite MM Omegaverse authors, and I’m lucky enough to be able to ARC her books. All of her books have some strong emotions in them, but The Pretense was just loaded with it. It’s a second chance, pretend boyfriend kind of story. It can be read as a standalone, but if you read all the Men of Meadowfall books in order, you’ll enjoy it more. They are all interconnected. There is one very particular moment that gave me a seriously ugly cry. There are some other spaces where I got teary, but this one particular scene was so hard, so heartbreaking that it really stuck with me, and made me ugly cry hard.

India R. Adams-Blue Waters

Blue Waters wasn’t published this year, but this was the year that I read it, so it counts to me, and since it’s my blog, that’s all that matters. This is the first of the Tainted Waters series that feature Whitney, Link, and Crash. All of the books in the series have made me full on ugly cry, but I’m just going to go with the first one here. It’s not a very long book, but it is very intense. Everything builds on the things before, but you do get a second to catch your breath in between. The entire series is worth reading. I don’t know that I would recommend reading them back-to-back, because of the intensity, but I would definitely recommend reading them.

B.B. Blaque-FTW

FTW doesn’t mean for the win here. It’s outlaw MC slang that means Fuck the World, and that is pretty much what happens here. This is the 3rd book in BB’s Masters MC series, and it is dark. I fell in love with Colt, Tuesday, Kash, and Barely when I read their books the first time, and I was really looking forward to this one. Let’s just say that it wasn’t a happy book. There were terrible, terrible things that happened, and I was devastated. BB will have GFY, Go Fuck Yourself, out soon, and I can’t wait.

OK, there they are, the Top 5 ugly cry books from this year.

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2019 Round Up-Top 10 Darkest Reads, Pt. 2

Hopefully, you’ve read the first part of this particular list, if not, go check it out here. Like any of my Top 10 lists, the books are in no particular order, because I find it really hard to put things in order like that.

Kay Elle Parker-Monsters and Guardians

Monsters and Guardians actually got banned from Amazon because of how dark and noncon-y it is. This is probably one of the most noncon-y books I’ve ever read, and considering how much I enjoy reading noncon, dark, and disturbing, that’s saying something. M&G covers a whole lot of tropes/genres. It’s RH, shifter, and omegaverse-light. And Raine, the heroine, for all the fucking hell she goes through in this one, is pretty damn kickass. One of my favorite moments is when she hits one of the guys, then apologizes to him. And as a result of talking about it here, I’m currently rereading it. The next book is what I will be rereading when I’m done with M&G.

Scarlett Snow & Loxley Savage-Saphyre

Saphyre is literally the only book I’m aware of that was banned by Amazon under 2, count them 2, different names. When it got banned under Saphyre, Scarlett and Loxley put it out under Ember, with a little editing, which then got banned too. So the ladies went out and found a new place to sell it, and that’s when I was able to get a hold of it. This is dark, post-apocalyptic, disturbing, absolutely brutal in places, and dystopian. It was also fantastic. Saphyre, our heroine, is rather tricksy, and I lived for it.

Felicity Brandon-Daddy’s Little Captive

Daddy’s little Captive is the first book in Felicity’s newest trilogy. It involves Sophie, who has had a hard time with her husband, because he’s vanilla and she’s rocky road. So, she went online and was talking to people in a kink forum, which led her to meeting Jared. I had a hard time with this one, mostly because I hated Jared, a lot. It is dark and a lot of terrible things happen in the book. The second book came out a couple of weeks ago, and now I’m waiting for book 3, because Felicity is mean and left us hanging.

Brittany Cournoyer-Sinister Shadows

Sinister Shadows is the only MM book on this list. I think that I’m going to have a Top 10 MM books coming up. This one is dark, mostly because it’s a mindfuck. Duncan wakes him, doesn’t remember what’s going on, nor does he remember the man who says that he’s Duncan history. We spend the whole book trying to figure out what’s going on and who everyone actually is. I wouldn’t call it a romance so much as I would call it suspense or a mystery.

Ivy Chapman-Torn Apart

Torn Apart is a very, very dark Omegaverse story. It is seriously dystopian. It is one of those dystopian stories that make you worry about reading dystopian stories ever again. This story is about twins Seraphine (F) and Arden (M), who are both omegas in a time when there aren’t a whole lot of free omegas floating around. We get the stories of both twins, and they aren’t pretty, not at all. This one left me breathless.

OK, that’s my Top 10 darkest reads of 2019. Most of them appeared on my blog during the year, so if you want more of what I thought of them, you should be able to find the posts pretty easily.

I hope everyone had a good holiday!

 

Loki Renard-Seeded

Seeded is a fun and filthy little story. It takes in the far future, one where the history is even crazier than our present. It’s a RH/menage kind of story, and there are definitely some interesting goings-on.

So, Lyra has worked really, really, really hard to get her job. She orbits the earth in a shuttle, doing all kinds of surveillance and such like. Then, she sees an anomaly out in space, so, being the curious sort, she goes off to investigate it. And that’s when everything changes.

You see, the mysterious anomaly is a spaceship called Virility. The crew of the Virility is all about breeding. They are out to inseminate as many species as possible. The goal is to make an ideal species that is a mix of everyone. And not only are they out there inseminating species, they are also inseminating space itself. Lots of fucking going on here.

They haven’t kept any of the women, at least until Lyra. Then again, none of the other women have tried to crash their ship right into the Virility. Talon, the captain of the ship, sees something about her and decides that he is going to keep her. But, of course it ain’t that easy. Lyra is bound and determined to get back to Earth, and she’s going to do everything she can to get there, including sabotaging things. Doing that brings her to the attention of Shank, the disciplinarian of the ship, and she gets punished for her transgressions. Then she meets Luca, who looks pretty human, and they become very friendly. Very, very friendly, if you catch what I’m pitching.

There is some fantastic fucking going on in this story. There’s also a chunk of humor in here. I spent some time just laughing my ass off. There were also times that were really sad. I did have tears going on when I read it.

I like that each guy met a need in Lyra, and she met a need each of the guys had. It is a really good relationship for everyone. I definitely think that she should be the captain of the ship though. It was pretty funny when she kept telling Talon that. And Major Tom? I’m a huge Bowie fan, so I had Space Oddity in my head after meeting that.

This is not one of Loki’s darker reads, but it is definitely worth it.

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The void monster thingie is really fascinating. And so is Lyra’s solution.

I don’t know whether I like before Lyra or after Lyra most. There are definitely differences and similarities in there.

OK, that’s all for today! Go check it out and happy reading!

Aria Adams-Her Raven Mates

Her Raven Mates appears in the box set Fated Mates. Full disclosure, this is the only one of the stories in the set that I’ve read so far, but since I now own the book, I’ll be getting to the rest of the stories at some point, I’m sure. There are a lot of them, and they will be a welcome change when I need something quick and easy to read.

Eileen is living under a curse. She has been cursed to be a swan 23.5 hours a day. And that 30 minutes when she gets to be human aren’t at the same time from day to day, so she can’t even plan to have any kind of life. Her mother tells her that this is the only way to keep her safe.

Vir, Bran, and Morwain are brothers. They are also raven shifters who are currently cursed. They are ravens by day and men by night. They are trying to track down the evil warlock who cast this curse on them so that they can get back to their normal lives of being private investigators. But it’s not easy, and their enemy keeps finding them.

I will have to admit that as soon as I found out that the heroine’s name was Eileen, I was hoping for just one Come On, Eileen moment. What can I say, I’m a child of the 80s, and I remember so much 80s music. And Aria didn’t disappoint me. There is a spot when one of the guys says it, and it made me happy.

The novella is pretty short and a nice quick read. Overall, I really enjoyed it. Because it’s short, you get a lot of insta-everything and not a lot of background, but that’s just fine, Aria makes it work really well.

I love that the guys all have Celtic-ish name and are ravens, mostly because there are raven stories in Celtic mythology. Frankly, I think ravens show up in most mythology somewhere, somehow. They are gorgeous birds and wicked smart. Why wouldn’t you put them in your mythology?

Anyway, go check out the entire set, especially if you are into fated mate romances. No spoilers today, it’s too short a story.

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Sara Fields-Frantic

Today we have another Omegaverse, by Sara Fields this time. But, before I talk about Frantic, I want to clarify something that I said in Friday’s blog, because I got a question about it. If you want to skip the clarification, go for it, and go to the section marked with ***.

I’ve taken to calling myself an Omegaverse junkie. I’ve read all of the MF on Amazon, I think. There may be a couple of books that just came out that I haven’t gotten to yet. I’ve read a good chunk of the MM there, as well as reading more on AO3, especially since I’ve found out that I can download the stories I like and send them to my Kindle. So, here’s the section that got the question. “This one happens to be MF O-verse, which means that there is some dubon/noncon in there, and it is dark. You don’t see that as much when it comes to MM Omegaverse, which I still find to be a really interesting thing. It’s not bad, it’s not good, it’s just different, and different makes the world go ’round.” And here’s the question that I got. “- Is the MF a mistake or oddity? I don’t understand why it’s so different from MM Omegaverse.

Short answer is that MM tends to be lighter and more consensual from the very beginning. Not in all of them, there are always going to be outliers. But, they tend to be more traditionally “romantic”. So, when you are comparing them to the MF, which tend to be darker, more dub/noncon, you notice a real difference. Probably the difference between the two mostly leads back to Addison Cain, who is a dub/noncon, dark romance author, and thus writes what she likes. Again, I’ll emphasize that Addison didn’t create Omegaverse, and there were probably MF stories before she wrote them, but none for sale on Amazon. The authors who are now writing MF followed in Addison’s footsteps and write them in the same way. For some good examples of MM, non-shifter, mpreg Omegaverse, that will let you see the differences between the two of them, check out Piper Scott’s His Command series or her Single Dad’s Support Group series. The SDSG is a spinoff of the His Command books. I have read all her books, and she writes both shifter and non-shifter. I hope that clarifies it some. If not, send me questions, and I’ll continue to answer them to the best of my ability and within my opinions.

*** OK, back to Sara.

Frantic is the second book in her Omegaverse RH series. It is a sequel, but not a serial. Having read the first book will help you to understand what Triss is in trouble for, but you don’t have to have read it to get this story. There’s enough explanation in this one for you to get the basic idea as to what happened.

We open with Triss entering her first estrous. She’s been staked outside the city, away from the suppressants so that it will happen. So, she’s just desperate to be fucked. She’s begging the Betas who are in charge of her punishment to please fuck her. The people of the city are standing on the walls watching her, laughing at her begging and being punished. Then, all of a sudden, 3 Alphas appear from out of the wilds and decide that they are going to fight over her. Triss, in all her desperate horny horniness, sidetracks them by begging them all to fuck her. That’s how she meets her Alphas, Garret, Lothgar, and Ravick. Two of them are from the wilds, one is from the city. They fuck her stupid in front of the city, and then they are all knocked out.

I didn’t particularly care for Triss in the last book, but I didn’t hate or seriously dislike her. She had her place in the last book and her role to play. She had her motivations, which were pretty much as old as time. I think her punishment fit her crime, at least when it comes to being staked out in estrous waiting for an Alpha or three to come fuck her. However, the city, being the city, is never going to see it that way. Frankly, I think that they are definitely the true villain in the series. And I don’t even know that it’s just one particular person in the city, although it looks like there is one person who might want to change that, but the traditions and power structure in the city is definitely set up so that they are the bad guys. The largest dynamic, by number, is Betas, so it makes sense to me as to why they would want to make sure that they stay in charge by making sure that the suppressants continue to work. If people get their natural instincts back, the Alphas are going to take over, so keeping the traditions and power structures in place works. That’s why it works that they treat known Omegas the way that they do. And it’s not very nice. It’s a ghetto, in the original sense of the word. It just reinforces that admitting a dynamic is a bad thing to do, and pretending to be a Beta is always going to be good.

Anyway, I do like Triss in this one. I don’t know that I would call her story so much a redemption storyline as more of a discovery about her and who she is under her actions. Although, there is more than a soupcon of redemption in there too. I like Garret, Ravik, and Lothar too. I think that they are going to be interesting in the world in the upcoming books.

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Nikki is interesting. I’m looking forward to learning more about her, as well as more about Ellie. I like her a lot.

OK, that’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

K Webster & Ker Dukey-Share Me

When you put these two ladies together, you get some magic. And Share Me is definitely in that magic category.

This book is an RH, which means we’ve got a lot of very hunky guys with just one very lucky woman. In this book, we have Clove, along with her guys, Sebastian, Leo, Zac, and Ford. And while I don’t really want to be Clove, I wouldn’t mind filling her shoes for a hot minute.

So, Clove, at 17, lost her mother. Her father is a politician and she’s practically an accessory to him. At her mother’s funeral, when a reporter gets in her face, she gets rescued by 4 definitely hot and hunky guys. Turns out that they are her new protection detail. Seb, Leo, Zac, and Ford all served together and then they started a security agency. They are all so close that they are basically brothers.

Fast forward 6 years, and Clove is still stuck being her dad’s accessory as he’s now running for the White House. She has a boyfriend, but he’s not all that exciting. Besides, she’s deeply in love/lust with her guys. So, she takes off to dump her boyfriend and then meet her father for an “outing”. For outing, read photo op. On her way out of the cafe, some dickwad purposely aims for her with his car. Luckily, her security was top-notch and they saved her. But now her dad wants to send her to a safe house, along with the guys, so they can find out who did this and to keep it from happening again.

Seb, Leo, Ford, and Zac have all been madly wanting Clove since she was legal, and now that they are all in hiding together, and it looks like it could happen, everyone is triple horny and ready to play until their bits beg for mercy.

Being as there are 4 heroes, you can pretty much guess that there is all the sex, all the time, and you’d be right. There is a lot of sex, and it happens a whole lot. I have to say that this is pretty much filthy. And filthy in the very best kind of way. There’s some one-on-one, but most of the sex is done in groups of two or more. There’s some really dirty stuff that happens, so you might want to be prepared for a cleanup at some point.

But, even while this has all sex all the time, it’s not just all sex all the time. There is an actual plot here, which is to guarantee Clove’s safety. There’s also a budding relationship being built. While the guys have been her safe spot for 6 years, having them as her friends and security guys are different to having them as her lovers, and it’s an altogether different kind of dynamic that they have to figure out. Then you toss in some distractions, and well, you get the idea.

I like Clove. I think that she is smart and funny. I also think that she’s incredibly naive sometimes, but she was brought up in an incredibly sheltered environment so it’s not all that surprising that she is a little naive.

The guys all have their own personalities, and K and Ker did really well to make sure that they all have their own voices and that you can see their personalities clearly.

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OMG, the scene with the bear? Fucking steaming.

OK, that’s all I have to say about this one today. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Loki Renard-Sold

Loki’s back and she’s brought us another delicious dark reverse harem book to clutch to our dark little hearts. Sold takes place in a post-apocalyptic dystopian Texas. As a side note, I’ve read several post-apocalyptic dystopian stories that take place in TX. Gotta wonder what’s going on down there, don’t ya?

So, the way that this one works is that years ago there was an Event that happened. It included war, disease, and women dying off. Now there aren’t a whole lot of women. What women there are, are kept in harems or safely locked away. Generally, it’s only the rich and powerful who are able to get to women and to breed them. Boys are turned into soldiers and such, girls are kept so that they can breed the next generation. The goal is to breed the woman as many times as possible in the hopes of getting more females, but since most babies are born males, there still just aren’t enough women to go around.

Trissa is one of the wild people. She lives outside the city of Dallas, in a cabin that her father built before she was born. He kept her there and taught her how to hide and survive. Now she goes around disguised as a man, because if anyone were to know that she was a woman, things would be bad. But one day, she goes into town to sell some oranges that she “found”, and while eating some stew, her fake beard falls off, and a whole bunch of men, some of whom have never seen a woman, try and grab her. Then the Sheriff shows up and decides to sell her. Until then, he’s sticking her in with the cut men, Mattias and Elias.

Wild fits Trissa really well. She’s not civilized and she will fight everything and everyone, even when she gets spanked or strapped. She’s also really naive. I mean, her life has always been either her and her father or her alone. She has no problem saying the word fuck like it means nothing, but if you ask her, the worst cuss word ever is income tax. (As it’s coming up on tax season here, I can’t blame her for thinking that.) She calls the seven men who end up buying her by names that suits some personality or physical trait she sees in them the first time she sees them. Silver Eyes, Tattoo Face (Keanu), Pharoh (Mark), Gladiator (Alexios), Cowboy (Rick), Zen (Steve), and Nordic Man (Tore). So ok, they aren’t necessarily the most original names ever, but as she hates them, I figure they are pretty nice names. She’s not calling them parking warden or anything. I think that Trissa is pretty cunning but somewhat ignorant, which doesn’t mean that she isn’t smart. It just means that she hasn’t had the chance to learn about something in particular. I mean, she doesn’t really understand the whole mechanics of human reproduction because no one has explained it to her. She’s an extremely interesting mix of naivte, innocence, and sensuality all mixed up in one person, which can make it hard to get a good read on her.

This isn’t the darkest thing I’ve ever read by Loki, but it isn’t all lightness and happiness either.

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OK, I totally love what Trissa does to the Sheriff, because, well, yeah. He’s a fuckhead.

That’s all I have to say today. Go check this one outQ Happy reading!