Charity B.-Candy Coated Chaos

Oh my ducklings. My poor sweet ducklings. I read two books that completely turned me around and twisted me up this week. One was Blai2e, the other was Candy Coated Chaos by Charity B.

Before I get into my review, I want to say that this one is dark. It has some issues that may trigger people and may bother others. Make sure that you read the blurb on this as well as the trigger warnings that Charity put there. Heed them. Read responsibly.

I also want to say that a part of the proceeds of the sales of this book will be donated to To Write Love on Her Arms, which is an organization that helps with self-harm, addiction, and suicide. The story of how they got their name is awesome, and they do fantastic work. I’ve followed their work for years and donated when I could.

When you read this, you might wonder why I didn’t put this in my BDSM category since there are some activities in here that people who practice BDSM might use. I debated it, I really did. But, finally, I decided that it just wasn’t the right place for it, in my POV. Your mileage may vary.

Now that we’ve gotten through all that, it’s time to actually dig into the book. I bet you thought that I was never going to get there.  But I have, and here we are.

Alexander, owner of Vulture Theaters, is a real cocksman. He’s a one and done kind of guy. He likes women, he just likes them once. One day, as he’s fucking around in his office, a knock comes on the door. He goes to answer the door and there is a petite young woman sucking on a lollie at the door. She looks at the nameplate and realizes that Alex isn’t the right person, and she quickly moves along to the next door until she finds one with the right nameplate.

Alex is somewhat fascinated with the fey-like young woman that he saw. When he gets the chance, he asks her out for a date. He asks Tavin to meet at a bar. When she gets there, she seems slightly less vivacious than she had before, but then suddenly she changes and gives him a huge kiss and then they go dancing. On the way to his house, they see a carnival. Tavin tells Alexander that she’s never been to a carnival, so of course, they have to go.

Alexander is fascinated with watching Tavin at the carnival. She acts like everything she sees, touches, and experiences is brand new and is magical. That makes Alex look at everything different and lets them have an amazing time. When they are done, they head to Alex’s house for fun and games of a more adult nature. Alex, who prides himself on never coming before a woman does, manages to miss getting Tavin to come. When he wakes up, Tavin’s gone. He figured that he would’ve fucked her out of his system, but it didn’t work that way. Because of course not.

Alex is finally able to track Tavin down and gets to her house just after she’s started to OD. He calls his doctor and takes her to his house to help her get better.

OK, this is that time. This story really was intense. I mean, I don’t have the words to describe how intense. It left me wrung out and emotional. We talk about books taking us on an emotional roller coaster, but this one passes up the roller coaster and goes for the tilt-a-whirl. You go up and down and spin around. I got spun around out of control, with no way to slow it down, and it just kept spinning faster and faster. When I finally got off, I was dizzy as hell, but I loved the ride. There are so many secrets on everyone’s part, but most especially Tavin’s. Alexander doesn’t always know how to handle everything he finds out, but to be fair to him, I don’t know that anyone would be able to handle the things he finds out in a completely calm manner, even if they weren’t fascinated with the person.


If you aren’t a fan of cliffhangers, then you aren’t going to be a super fan of this one. I do know that the next one is coming out in about 6 weeks, but I don’t know when 3 is coming out. I do have assurances that one of my biggest worries over the ending works out well. I’m not going to tell you what it is though, so there. I can be mean.

I’m dying to know more about the bitch Carrie in Alex’s life. I’m betting that she aborted their child, or something similar. And that the tiara that Sasha stole has something to do with that.

I’m glad that Alex was able to swallow his pride enough to contact his sister to help with Tavin. I know that couldn’t have been easy for him to do, but really, I think that was the best thing he could’ve done in the situation.

I wonder what all Tavin told Sasha. I wonder why Sasha and not Alexander. I wonder how much Sasha will tell Alexander. I wonder what kind of blowback is coming Alex’s way. I neeeeeeeed all these questions answered. I hear that I can get the ARC next month, so I only have to make it through next month. Hopefully, it can help tide me over to Blair3. (OMG guys, Blai2e next week!)

OK, that’s all I have to say today. And since I couldn’t decide which picture I wanted to use, have another picture. Meanwhile, happy reading!



Yolanda Olson-anatomy

Yolanda Olson writes some serious mindfuck books. They may be horror, they may be dark, they may be something. The only thing I can guarantee is that you are going to walk away wondering what the ever-loving fuck Yolanda has just done to you. anatomy is one of those books.  I had several WTF moments as I was reading because I wasn’t sure that I had read what I just thought I read. It seriously spun me around and wrung me out like I was in a washing machine’s spin cycle. It was just OMG. Really. It’s an amazing book, but if you can’t handle dark, darker, darkest and total mindfucks, do yourself a favor and pass this one up.

I’m not posting any spoilers, because anything I could post about the plot of the story will give things away, so I’m going to just post the blurb, and we’ll all be happy.

There’s a monster before me that’s killing everything I believe in.

A villain that sees me for what I’m worth and wants the pound of flesh I’ve offered up as repayment for my sins. The burden I carry is heavy on my shoulders, but as pieces of me are stripped away to bare the horrors within, I can feel myself becoming worthy of the pain.

I’m not a monster.

No matter how much it hurts to admit it, and no matter how terrible the truth will be when brought to light, I know that I’ll end this cleansed and whole again.

It’s what I truly want and that’s why I’m here.

The nights are long and full of torturous deviance and yet I still manage to keep a smile on my face, because while the ultimate prize at the end of this game is to claim my life, there’s a secret my tormentor doesn’t know.

If I go down, it will mean the end of both of us.

Sounds totally awesome, right?



Did you come down here just to check to see if I put anything down here? Nope, nothing. Go buy the book.

Natalie Bennett-Savages

I’ve read some other Natalie Bennett and really enjoyed them, so I thought that I knew what I was in for. I knew that what I was going to get something dark, raw, and gritty. Savages exceeded everything I was expecting. Like I said, I thought I knew what I was in for and thought that I was prepared. But, it’s intense and dark from the very start and will knock you 10 feet away and leave your shoes and socks knocked off right where you stood. Savages did just that. It savaged me and left me raw and needing more immediately.

Calista has grown up in her father’s pseudo-religious cult. She’s done whatever her father has wanted, no matter what it was, just hoping that he would approve of her. On what may be the worst day of her young life, she sees a woman she thought of as a friend being killed in a horrible way. After that, she’s dragged out by her own brothers to be taken out. Miraculously, she manages to survive what they do to her and then drags herself away. Years later, she’s still surviving.

Roman has been the leader of the Savages. He has something against Cali’s father, and he goes out of his way to make the man’s life as terrible as possible. He may not be able to strike directly at him, but he can take bites around the edges. When something happens and he’s put face-to-face with Cali, the world they are both living in starts to implode and make huge changes in the both of them.

This book. Man. This book is really explosive. Everyone is holding back major secrets. I mean considering what we do learn about them, you know that the secrets have to be huge. The chemistry between Rome and Cali is unlike anything you may have ever seen before. I don’t think that there is anything that can explain it. The rawness and grittiness of this book also can’t be explained. I love raw, dark, dirty, and gritty, and I reveled in this book, even as it scoured me raw. I can’t wait for book 2.

There are so many things that I’m dying to know and that I’m hoping that book two answers. And no, I’m not going to really tell you what all those things are. I’ll be more than happy to tell you if you PM me about it, but that’s as far as I am going to go with it. Suffice it to say, I expect anyone else who’s reading these books to want to know all the same things that I do.

Rome is super intense, and I really want to know more of his backstory. Then again, if I know more about him, will it ruin him for me. I dunno. There’s always a fine line authors have to work with there. How much can they show us about any character without taking that character’s power away? Does taking a dark protagonist like Rome and showing him split open and spilling his secrets make him more dark or less dark?

OK, that’s all that I have to say about Savages, other than go out and buy it as quickly as you can. I don’t normally mention what I’m listening to when I’m writing a blog, but today it seems appropriate to mention that I wrote this to David Bowie’s Blackstar. It was his goodbye album and it fits this for me. So, I’m off to prepare myself to share other things with you. Meanwhile, happy reading!


Jennifer Bene-Imperfect Monster

This book. I have been waiting for this book from the very second I finished reading Monster in Hero Undercover. Monster has shown up on various of my lists, including my Top Ten darkest and fucked up reads list. Dark, yes, fucked up, yes, hot, very yes. And Imperfect Monster has lived up to the promise of Monster.

Now, I know that pretty much any time I pick up a Jennifer Bene book I’m going to get dark, and I count on that. I’ve found all those dark places in my soul that enjoy these books, and I love finding an author that lets me play in them, so finding Jennifer was like finding home. Her books feed my dark and twisted soul. So I knew that the second this book hit my Kindle, I was going to have to sit down and have a meal.

Nicky is bound and determined to take care of her baby brother. He got beat and is in the hospital, in rough shape. All he could do was tell him who did it and how much he owed. All she could do was think of ways that she could get him out of trouble. To that end, she scraped up $20K so that she could go and buy him out of trouble. So she marches up to house of Paulo Garcia, major drug dealer, with her courage screwed to the sticking place, and hollers that she is there to pay him off and get her bother out of hock. The only problem is? She’s $5K short.

Andre is the monster that Paulo keeps in his back pocket. When Paulo needs something done, and done in a nasty way, he sends in Andre. That’s not all Andre is though. He’s also an undercover agent, there to take Paulo down. He’s been under for years now, and nothing is left of him inside, or so he thinks. When he sees Nicky, some kind of glimmer pokes through all that empty numbness, and he wants to try to save her. Of course, he wants to save her for himself, because he wants her and he wants to hear her scream his name and cry, but he also has that faint glint of something that affects his behavior. He goes to Paulo and pays the extra money, thereby buying Nicky and keeping safe from everybody except for Andre, and well, Paulo if he asks. Everyone belongs to Paulo.

Alright, we’re going to make our split here. This book is dark, very dark. It’s full of noncon/dubcon goodness. It has a stubborn woman and a tortured anti-hero. I mean, that’s pretty much a recipe for a great book right there. And it baked just right, it’s a great book. It was worth all the wait I had to put in all the way from last summer to today. I got sucked into the book and twisted around and around. It’s also incredibly hot. Did I mention it was hot? Andre has done something for me from the very first time I met him, and that something has just gotten stronger with being able to read more about him. I don’t think he’s ever going to be one of those characters I’m going to forget or ignore, and I will probably hold up other dark anti-heroes to him for comparison. If you don’t like dark, avoid this one. You aren’t going to like it. If dubcon or noncon bothers you, avoid this one. If those things bother you, I can suggest a lot of other things for you to read.

for imperfect monster

OK, I know that I’ve said that the first gun scene was hot, and it was, but I found the second one to be less so. I think it was just the situation around it. It must have been hard for Nicky to survive that and everything that followed.

I never thought that Andre was as dark as he thought he was. I can see why he would think that he was that dark and all that. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think he’s light either. I just don’t think he was a pitch black as he thought he was. Maybe a very, very, very dark gray. He had good intentions for going in and doing what he was doing, but you know what they say about good intentions and what road they pave. And all his good intentions definitely paved his road to hell. He walked through his own doing what he had to. I kind of want to beat on his handler for everything he put Andre through.

OK, that’s all I have to say about this one today. It’s dark. It’s lovely, and I loved every fucking word of it. Go check it out for yourself and tell me what you think. Meanwhile, happy reading!