2019 Round Up-Top 10 Darkest Reads, Pt. 2

Hopefully, you’ve read the first part of this particular list, if not, go check it out here. Like any of my Top 10 lists, the books are in no particular order, because I find it really hard to put things in order like that.

Kay Elle Parker-Monsters and Guardians

Monsters and Guardians actually got banned from Amazon because of how dark and noncon-y it is. This is probably one of the most noncon-y books I’ve ever read, and considering how much I enjoy reading noncon, dark, and disturbing, that’s saying something. M&G covers a whole lot of tropes/genres. It’s RH, shifter, and omegaverse-light. And Raine, the heroine, for all the fucking hell she goes through in this one, is pretty damn kickass. One of my favorite moments is when she hits one of the guys, then apologizes to him. And as a result of talking about it here, I’m currently rereading it. The next book is what I will be rereading when I’m done with M&G.

Scarlett Snow & Loxley Savage-Saphyre

Saphyre is literally the only book I’m aware of that was banned by Amazon under 2, count them 2, different names. When it got banned under Saphyre, Scarlett and Loxley put it out under Ember, with a little editing, which then got banned too. So the ladies went out and found a new place to sell it, and that’s when I was able to get a hold of it. This is dark, post-apocalyptic, disturbing, absolutely brutal in places, and dystopian. It was also fantastic. Saphyre, our heroine, is rather tricksy, and I lived for it.

Felicity Brandon-Daddy’s Little Captive

Daddy’s little Captive is the first book in Felicity’s newest trilogy. It involves Sophie, who has had a hard time with her husband, because he’s vanilla and she’s rocky road. So, she went online and was talking to people in a kink forum, which led her to meeting Jared. I had a hard time with this one, mostly because I hated Jared, a lot. It is dark and a lot of terrible things happen in the book. The second book came out a couple of weeks ago, and now I’m waiting for book 3, because Felicity is mean and left us hanging.

Brittany Cournoyer-Sinister Shadows

Sinister Shadows is the only MM book on this list. I think that I’m going to have a Top 10 MM books coming up. This one is dark, mostly because it’s a mindfuck. Duncan wakes him, doesn’t remember what’s going on, nor does he remember the man who says that he’s Duncan history. We spend the whole book trying to figure out what’s going on and who everyone actually is. I wouldn’t call it a romance so much as I would call it suspense or a mystery.

Ivy Chapman-Torn Apart

Torn Apart is a very, very dark Omegaverse story. It is seriously dystopian. It is one of those dystopian stories that make you worry about reading dystopian stories ever again. This story is about twins Seraphine (F) and Arden (M), who are both omegas in a time when there aren’t a whole lot of free omegas floating around. We get the stories of both twins, and they aren’t pretty, not at all. This one left me breathless.

OK, that’s my Top 10 darkest reads of 2019. Most of them appeared on my blog during the year, so if you want more of what I thought of them, you should be able to find the posts pretty easily.

I hope everyone had a good holiday!

 

Felicity Brandon-Captured

Oh, Felicity is back with one of her delightful capture, noncon fantasies. Captured is all gothicky and suspenseful, and dayum, soooo good.

So, here’s the story. Fuller and Lawes are dentists. They, along with their assistants, have come up with a letter to send to women who have some serious dental anxiety. They’ve done all kinds of research and background searches to find the perfect women to send these letters out to. Sounds all nice and shit, doesn’t it? Yeah, don’t you believe it.

Hannah is one of the women who got the letter. She’s had some issues with dental fear for years. One bad appointment when she was a kid, and that was all she wrote. So, she gets this letter that says hey, we can give you the dental treatment you need while helping you to deal with your dental anxiety. Hannah thought that sounded good, so off she went.

She gets to the doctor’s appointment, and is taken to the office of one of the dentists and starts talking to him. The next thing she knows, she wakes up naked, secured in a dentist chair, ready for her examination.

There is a lot of dirty deliciousness going on in here. I mean, Felicity dug deep for the obscenity here. I’m not going to complain one little bit, because I’m not joking, it really was delicious. Pretty much everything that happened hit a good place for me.

I really empathize with Hannah, because I had a really traumatic appointment with a dentist when I was a kid, and I have some serious dental anxiety too. I will, however, never ask for sedation dentistry again, because heaven only knows what I’d wake up to. And, as I was reading this, I had to run my son into town because we needed to go to the store superquick. He told me he’d run into store for me, yay kid, so I was sitting in the car reading while I was waiting for him. As I was doing that, a commercial came over the radio for a dentist office that specialized in patients with dental anxiety. Yup, I laughed my ass off.

So, I like Hannah. I think that she shows a lot of spunk. Not necessarily a lot of planning, but spunk. She fights against what’s happening, and I can respect that. I don’t know if her lack of planning ahead is just from the whole unexpectedness of what happens and opportunities that show up, or from fear, adrenaline, or whatever. Whatever it is, I think that if she had waited and played along for a little while that she would’ve been in a much better place.

I find the guys there to be very interesting. I don’t like Fuller at all. I think that he’s scary af. But I find Lawes and Matthew to have something that I like. I’m not sure what it is, but there’s something that draws me to them. I think that there is something that Lawes likes about Hannah too.

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I think that Lawes should get his ass beat, just because. I mean, stick him in the pillory and have 40 whacks at him. Seems to be poetic justice to me.

OK, that’s all for this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Felicity Brandon-Mastered by Daddy

Felicity is back with the 2nd book in her dark Daddy trilogy, Mastered by Daddy. This one picks up right where the first one left off, so there will probably be spoilers. You have been warned.

So, Jared has taken Sophie away from her home and family, and now he has his little girl tied up in her little pink bedroom. He has plans for all kinds of depraved things that he’s going to do to her. He ties her up, fucks her, shaves her, punishes her, and puts a bib on her. He forces her to eat breakfast even though she doesn’t want it.

Then there is Sophie. She both hates and loves what he’s doing to her. I mean, it hits all her happy buttons, even though she really doesn’t want it to, but she’s still trapped by a terrible man, who took her without her permission, keeps her tied up, is forcing her to call him Daddy, and won’t let her go to her kids.

Yeah, that’s kind of a quick synopsis of the story, but I don’t want to get too much into it, really. There are several reasons for that, but one of them is the fact that there is a lot of sex in this, and I can’t synopsize the sex scenes and do any justice to what Felicity wrote. That’s why she’s the author and I’m the blogger.

Like the first book, I had a hard time with this one. I think that part of the reason that I had problems with it is carried over from the first book, which totally makes sense because they are the same characters, so my feelings are going to carry over. The book should hit a lot of my happy buttons, because it’s dark, it’s a capture story, and it’s a strong bad guy, but I’m still having some problems with it. I like a good bad guy, but I really hate Jared, and not in a love to hate, hate to love kinda way, I really just don’t like him. I haven’t been able to find anything that I can latch on to, and the fact that he has taken Sophie away from her children and doesn’t give a flying fuck, as long as he gets his dick wet, is probably the biggest reason that I don’t like him. But even with me hating Jared, Felicity has still written a book that I felt was really intense. In fact, I had to put it down a couple of times and take a break because of that intensity.

I am still wavering back and forth on Sophie. I like her, and I think that she’s fighting against Jared as hard as she can, and fighting to get back to her kids, but she also finds herself in a place where she almost accepts what’s happening. Which is totally a sensical thing, considering, and that doesn’t make me waver on her. I honestly am not sure why I waver on her. Here’s the thing though, me wavering on her is a compliment to Felicity, I think. That’s because I’m thinking about the characters even after I’m done reading the book.

So, you might be asking yourself if I will read the 3rd one even though I’ve had issues with the first two. My answer is yes, and I’ll tell you why. Because I am invested in what happens to Sophie and if Jared can be redeemed.

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I found Daniel’s comments on consent to be really interesting. I’m wondering if they are foreshadowing anything.

OK, that’s all there is on this one. Go check it out! Happy reading!

Felicity Brandon-Daddy’s Little Captive

Felicity has given us a really dark Daddy book with Daddy’s Little Captive. It’s a very intense story that gave me a lot of feelz. A lot of very, very complicated feelz. It took me a lot of time and some serious conversations with my husband about the book while I tried to work my way through them. I’m not going to lie to you, I had a hard time with some of this book. But, you know, that’s actually kind of a good thing, because that meant that it affected me, and isn’t that every author’s desire? To make their readers feel something or be affected by their book?

So, here’s the story. Sophie is a married woman with two children that she loves very much. But her marriage isn’t the best, part of it is that her husband works all the hours of the day, and part of it is that she and her husband have different desires. She wants some kink going on, and every time she talks to her husband about it, he keeps telling her that he just wants to have “nice” sex. In other words, no kink. No ropes. No gags. No spanking. Missionary, lights off, socks on. (I’m not trying to shame anyone who likes sex that way. You do you.) Because she isn’t getting her needs met, she signed up to a kink website, and started talking to someone named Carl. They spent a lot of time talking about what was going on in their lives and their various desires, needs, and wants.

Then one day, Sophie’s husband reminded her that the carpet cleaners were coming that day, so she should be ready. Well, she might’ve been ready for the cleaners, but she wasn’t ready for what really happened. What happened was 3 men burst into her house, drugged her, and then tied her up to her bed. Jared was the ringleader, and when she woke up, he told her that he was really Carl, and he was there for her.

This is all dark, intense, noncon, capture fun stuff. It’s all stuff that’s right in my wheelhouse, right? And it is. And I enjoyed the book, overall, but there were times when it was just too much. I don’t like Jared at all. Not one tiny bit. Right now, I don’t feel like there is any redeemable quality to him. Of course, Felicity being the excellent author that she is, she probably has turned him into something that I can like in the next book. She really does quite well with redemption arcs and giving her male characters some changes that make people like them. I’m looking forward to seeing what happens.

I am truly torn when it comes to Sophie. I can relate to her in some ways. Probably in more ways than I would like to count. But I think that she made a lot of choices weren’t necessarily the best, and I’m judging her a little bit for it, I think. Or maybe a lot of bit.

I liked the book, I hated the book, I was left with all kinds of feelings and a hangover from it. It lives in my head, and I may never get rid of Sophie and Jared.

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I really don’t think that I can put anything down here. Sorry, not sorry.

Ok, if you are into dark and noncon, then this may be something you should go check out. Happy reading!

 

Felicity Brandon-Entwined

Felicity has finished up with Molly and Connor in Entwined and the ending was everything I could’ve wished for and more. The book is intense in places, and it took me a hot minute to get handle the feelz from it. I had to decompress, and there was one point where I had to step away for a little bit. It isn’t the most intense book that I’ve ever read, nor the darkest, but there was just something about Molly and Connor’s story that hit me hard. Don’t ask me what it was, I couldn’t tell you, but there you go.

So, Molly is home in the US, staying with her parents and trying to handle being alone. As you can expect, she’s not handling it well. I mean, think about what her year has been like, first she was abducted, then she was freed, and had to deal with being stuck in England and interrogated by the cops because they thought she knew something. Then, she goes home and everyone tiptoes around her. It’s no wonder that she’s having a really shitty time. And, she misses Connor. She didn’t think that she would, but she does.

Then there’s Connor, who misses Molly desperately. Even though The Syndicate got him out of jail, that doesn’t mean that he’s not still having to hide from the cops. They would probably love to get ahold of him again. But, he wants Molly. He wants to have her back with him. He at least wants to contact her just to see if she’s OK. But, secret society, wanted man,  blah, blah, blah. Gotta stay hidden and all that. And he can’t go just jump on an airplane because see above. So, he’s kind of shit out of luck.

I pretty much hated Connor in the first book and liked him a little more in the next book, and I actually liked him quite a bit in this one. I got mad AF at him once, because he was stupid. I mean, he became Stupid McStupidpants who loves on Stupiding Way in the city of Stupidville and the state of Utter Stupidity. Don’t get me wrong, I understand why certain choices were made and certain actions were done, but I’m not entirely sure that it was completely Connor’s decision. I think that he was egged into it or coerced. I know that it seems kind of funny to think about Connor being coerced into something, but that’s just kind of the feeling I got.

Molly really does show a lot of strength at times in this book. I liked to see that for her. She really came into her own and showed her own strength.

I don’t think I have anything to say as spoilers, so enjoy this picture of London’s skyline, and the building my husband calls London’s Buttplug.

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Felicity Brandon-Tamed

Stop! If you haven’t read the first book in this series, Taken, don’t go any further until you do. This series is a serial and it has cliffhangers. The third book will be out in January, so if you don’t like to read a serial until everything comes out, then you won’t have long to wait. I, myself, don’t mind a little bit of a cliffhanger, but there’s a rumor that I’m a literary masochist. But, I’m telling you now, I can’t wait to get to the third book, because the end of this one? Wow! So, if you are ready to visit Felicity Brandon and get Tamed, then jump over the cliff with me.

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So, when we last left Molly and Connor, she was running away from him at the cabin in the woods. She was sure that she couldn’t handle anything more from Connor and that he had turned into a serious monster. So, trying to be sneaky sneaky, she got the key, grabbed a blanket, and fled into the woods starkass naked. Connor was awake, and he decided to give her a minute before he started chasing her. He did warn her that if she ran, he would chase her, and she would never be able to escape him. So, after a while, he started to chase her.

When he couldn’t find her quickly, he started freaking out, went back and got the car and headed for the road, where he was lucky to see her. Well, lucky for him. Not so lucky for Molly, who is in for some serious punishment.

That punishment includes a serious paddling, a punishment fuck, because really, what punishment is complete without getting it up the ass, and some time spent caged in the mostly dark.

There are a lot of changes in this book, not just in Molly but also in Connor. I mean, of course there are going to be changes in Molly, because when you are in the place that she is in, you are going to do everything you can to make sure that you can keep the person who is keeping your captive happy, because it’s obvious that bad things are going to happen if your captor gets mad. So, she’s going to learn to do everything he wants so that he will stay happy, as well as learn to read his moods so that she can do what she needs to do to keep him happy. Easy peasy, lemon squeezy, right? Uhhhh, nope. But all that makes there be serious changes in her. But, the more surprising thing is that there are also changes in Connor, changes that Molly is making in him. On top of seeing those changes, we also get to learn more about Connor. I mean, we get to know his age now, which is something more than we had before.

We are still getting the split perspective, but like in the last book, I think that there are times when the perspectives almost merge so that we are seeing both of them together, if that makes sense. I don’t think that split perspectives work for all books and I’ve read a few books in which there was a split perspective that I wished wasn’t there, but it really is a necessity for this book, and Felicity does it really well.

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OMG, the scene with Conor in the bathroom? Just wow. Says quite a bit about him and his brain, doesn’t it?

I’m looking forward to finding out more about The Syndicate. I’m pretty sure that they are going to figure pretty heavily in the next book. I can’t wait to see.

I wonder how well Molly is going to do now. I’m pretty sure nothing is going to be all that good right now.

That’s all that I have to say. If you like dark, suspenseful, and sexy, go check this one out. Happy reading!

Felicity Brandon-Taken

So, in Taken, Felicity has decided to go all meta on us. I loved it. One warning, it is a serial, but the next 2 parts will be out in December and January, so Felicity isn’t going to be all that sadistic towards us. Just a little bit sadistic.

Molly Clary is an author. She’s an author who writes capture fantasy books, along with noncon/dubcon, objectification, and pet play aspects. She’s tremendously popular. So, she does as many authors do, and sets up readers’ groups on social media where she can connect with her readers and goes to signings. Her latest signing is in London, which is really far away from her home in Pennsylvania.

As she’s packing up to go back to her hotel at the end of her signing, a beautiful man comes up and asks her if it’s too late for him to get a book signed. When Molly tells him that it’s fine, he hands her a book called Amelie’s Abduction, and she signs it to Connor Reilly, a self-professed superfan.

When Molly leaves, she ends up wandering the streets of London around where the signing was so that she can find her car. Instead, what she finds is trouble. A pack of young men tries to attack her, but then Connor comes to her rescue. But only for so far. He ends up abducting her and taking her to his house, where he ties her down and chains her. And oh yeah, forces her to write their story. (See, that’s where it gets all meta)

So yes, not only has she been captured and is being held by Connor, she has to write all about it, because he is her biggest fan.

OK, this one is ridiculously hot and filthy, and it may have one of my new favorite scenes ever in it. And I say this admitting that Felicity has one of my favorite scenes ever in one of her Viking books. We get both Connor’s and Molly’s POV, but sometimes it seems to really blend together, so there are times when it seems like you are in both of their heads at the same time. There are times when it is very distinct. It works really well here. I wouldn’t suggest it for everyone or in every book, but like I said, it really did work here.

I loved watching all of the struggles and confusion that goes on in Molly’s head. It’s fascinating to see her go through trying to figure out what she should do at any given point and how she feels at any point in time. I would love to see what she’s writing, because I think that it would be a great window into her mind and how she’s feeling, even more than her POV in the book. Does that make sense? It makes sense to me, but you know how it is. Things we think make sense don’t always. I just think that seeing how she processed it through her writing would deepen our understanding of her. I also wonder what Connor thinks of her writings.

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Ok, not so many spoilers here as much as a I love the fucking end of this story. I mean, WTF. I can’t wait to read it. And fucking hell, what a cliffie.

Go check it out. Happy reading!