2019 Round Up-Top Ugly Cry Books

I don’t know if there are going to be 10 or not, so this is probably just going to be a 1 part post. For me, an ugly cry book is different from a book that makes me cry. There are some books that will give me tears because there is something sad going on, a break up, a death, so on and so forth. Generally, they last for a couple of minutes, and they are just tears running down my face. An ugly cry is just that, really ugly. Full on tears, snot running out of my nose, sobs, the whole 9 yards. These are the reads that make my husband ask me if I’m OK. He’s learned to accept the answer that it’s just an ugly cry book. So, here are some of the books that made me ugly cry this year. There are some that I’ve already mentioned on other lists that gave me ugly cries, Nicky James’ Long Way Home and Eva Dresden’s Broken, so they are just getting Honorable Mentions here. So, let’s get on with the ones that made it, shall we?

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Nicolina Martin-Redemption

Redemption is part of Nicolina’s Russo Saga, and is its own Duet with Absolution. (Expect to see that one show up tomorrow or Wednesday.) Anyway, no matter what the title says, there isn’t a lot of redemption going on in this book. This is the story of Christian and Kerry. Kerry is just a nice, sweet woman who happened to be working at a childcare center where a mobster’s son went. When she asked him a question, he sent Christian after her. When we first met Christian, in an earlier book, I really liked him. I didn’t by the end of this book. In fact, I downright fucking hated him. When Nicolina read my GR review on in, she asked me what my ugly cry moments were, and there were moments, not just a moment. Because it is a duet, it is a cliffhanger, but the second one is already out, so there’s that.

Addison Cain-Ravaged Captive

Ravaged Captive is the 4th book in Addison’s Wren’s Song books. They are Omegaverse and RH. All of the books have made me cry, but this one really made me cry because everything started to really fall apart. Caspian, Toby, and Kieran are at each other’s throat, Wren has been tossed out and thought dead, and the doll is in the way. I think that it was the addition of the doll that really got to me. I expect that the next one will also give me an ugly cry. Sooooooon.

Anna Wineheart-The Pretense

Anna is one of my favorite MM Omegaverse authors, and I’m lucky enough to be able to ARC her books. All of her books have some strong emotions in them, but The Pretense was just loaded with it. It’s a second chance, pretend boyfriend kind of story. It can be read as a standalone, but if you read all the Men of Meadowfall books in order, you’ll enjoy it more. They are all interconnected. There is one very particular moment that gave me a seriously ugly cry. There are some other spaces where I got teary, but this one particular scene was so hard, so heartbreaking that it really stuck with me, and made me ugly cry hard.

India R. Adams-Blue Waters

Blue Waters wasn’t published this year, but this was the year that I read it, so it counts to me, and since it’s my blog, that’s all that matters. This is the first of the Tainted Waters series that feature Whitney, Link, and Crash. All of the books in the series have made me full on ugly cry, but I’m just going to go with the first one here. It’s not a very long book, but it is very intense. Everything builds on the things before, but you do get a second to catch your breath in between. The entire series is worth reading. I don’t know that I would recommend reading them back-to-back, because of the intensity, but I would definitely recommend reading them.

B.B. Blaque-FTW

FTW doesn’t mean for the win here. It’s outlaw MC slang that means Fuck the World, and that is pretty much what happens here. This is the 3rd book in BB’s Masters MC series, and it is dark. I fell in love with Colt, Tuesday, Kash, and Barely when I read their books the first time, and I was really looking forward to this one. Let’s just say that it wasn’t a happy book. There were terrible, terrible things that happened, and I was devastated. BB will have GFY, Go Fuck Yourself, out soon, and I can’t wait.

OK, there they are, the Top 5 ugly cry books from this year.

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B. B. Blaque-The Masters MC: FTW

I’ve reviewed other B. B. Blaque books here before, but this is the first one of the Masters MC books I’ve reviewed. The closest I’ve come is one that features Kash, but is a what if situation, not the club as a whole. FTW features the whole club and dayum, it is so fucking good. I mean, I was totally wiped out by this book. And for the record? FTW here doesn’t mean for the win, it totally means Fuck The World. Yeah.

This is the 3rd book in the Masters MC series. The first book features Colt and Tuesday, and the second is Kash and Barely. Colt and Cash are best friends, who grew up in 2 different 1%er MCs. They got out of that life and decided to start their own club. They are also Doms, and the Masters MC is all about the BDSM lifestyle. The old ladies aren’t just old ladies, but slaves. In the BDSM sense, and consensually. Tuesday is a rich girl out of NOLA who ran away from that life and fell in with some bad guys, but luckily she found Colt, and they fell madly in love. Then, her half-sister, Barely, gets taken by their no-good father, who is an enemy of Colt’s and Kash’s fathers, and he literally locks her up in a cell in the basement and pimps her out. Colt, Kash, and the guys ride to her rescue, and Barely and Kash fall madly in love. And in their case, I’m pretty sure I mean madly. Barely and Kash are extreme, but it works for them, they are both happy, and they both get their needs met. Is it what I would want? Nope, but it works for them, and that’s the important thing. Of course, that doesn’t stop me from crushing so hard on Kash. So. Hard. Then there is Serenity. She’s like Colt and Kash’s little sister. They saved her and protect her now. She’s like the heart and soul of the entire club.

So, OK, now that you know some of the basic players, let’s talk about the story. The MC wakes up to find out that their bar is burning. And not just that their bar is burning, but that some of their people have gone missing. They were supposed to be opening up. Colt, Kash, and the boys head out there to find out what’s going on, only for one of the missing people to stagger out of the woods and tell them that there is someone else back where they came from and stuck in a ditch. There are members who are beat to 7 hells and back, and people who end up stuck in the hospital in comas.

I’m sure that you can guess that there is a whole lot of revenge, considering what I’ve told you about the guys, and there really is. A whole lot of revenge.

See, here’s the thing. This is, at its heart, a love story. It’s not your typical love story with hearts, and candy, and flowers. Although, I’m pretty sure that there may be some hearts, somewhere. This is the love story of two guys who might not be good by society’s standards, but who are good by their own standards. They don’t have society’s moral code, but they have their own. And when you break those guys, who may or may not be good guys, what’s going to happen?

Even though it’s a love story, it’s not just a love story. It’s a dark adventure full of vengeance, violence, and malevolence. That brings up the question of whether or not Colt, Kash, Sundown, and the rest of the guys are bad guys doing bad things, good guys doing bad things, or just guys who are going what needs to be done. I know what I think of them, but I’m deeply in love with this series and these characters, so it makes it easy to know what I think. Mostly.

I got really wrapped up in this book and was turned inside out and upside down. I was in a book hangover when I was done, and had to go read something so completely other, it isn’t even funny. This whole series has been one of those series where I’m glad I got to read it, but then I’m both mad and sad that I will never get to read it for the first time again. That is, to me, pretty much the ultimate compliment that I can pay any book. B. B. creates a helluva world and you aren’t ever going to get away from it once you have walked into it.

OK, no spoilers, but I have some pretty, pretty men to look at.

B. B. Blaque-Who’s Sawree Now?

Oh man. Buckle up buttercup, it’s going to be a bumpy ride. Are you all strapped in now?

A few months ago, B. B. Blaque, who writes in the pitch black, wrote a book that is very likely one of the biggest mindfucks I’ve ever read. I’m Sawree played with my mind in all kinds of ways, and I was just like fuuuuck. Then BB said that she was going to write another one. And I wondered how she was going to top herself. Then I read Who’s Sawree Now? 

Now, I read a lot of books. I mean, a lot a lot. I like reading dark, twisty, mindfuckery, and completely fucked up books. There are very few books that when I’m done with them, I am honestly completely at a loss for words. I looked at my husband and said fuck, just fuck. I can count those books on the fingers of one hand and still have left over fingers. It took me a couple of days to write my review on GR for it because I had to process it.

I’m not going to give you any kind of summary on it. Giving you a summary of the book won’t help you. You need to read it to even start to understand it. And if you haven’t read Sawree, you’re being thrown into the Marianas Trench without knowing how to swim. And you really don’t understand this story as much as it grabs you, strangles you, pulls your hair, and drags you along behind it. You just hope to hold on, catch your breath, and to be able to hold on to your sanity at the end.

Calling this book a mindfuck is doing it an injustice. The problem is, I don’t think there is another term for it. I mean, if Rod Serling, Alfred Hitchcock, and Richard Matheson got together and had a bastard child, it would be this book. Sterling is beyond a psychopath. Put Ed Gein, John Wayne Gacy, and Mengele together and you might have Sterling. He is probably the closest thing to pure evil I’ve ever read in a non-paranormal story.

When I reviewed Sawree, I suggested booze and fluffy kitties. I’m here to tell you, there ain’t enough fluffy baby kitties in the world. It may take baby goats. Even then, I’m not sure. I do know that you are going to need the booze.

I just have one more tip. Don’t drink the coffee.

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My Top Ten Books of 2017 Part 1

Today and tomorrow you’re going to get my Top Ten books of 2017. Some I have reviewed here before, some I haven’t. But these are the ones that affected me the most, I liked the most, or there was just something about them. They are mostly in no particular order, generally, because it was hard for me to decide what order they go in. They also may have been published before 2017, but I read them in 2017. And it’s hard to limit my list to just 10.

I’m Sawree

B. B. Blaque has written some truly strange, fucked up, mind fuck books. I’m Sawree is pretty much the mind fuck of the century. I had to message B. B. Blaque when I was done reading it because really, I wanted to know what the fuck she had just done to me. I’m not saying anything about the plot of Sawree, and my blog post doesn’t either. Basically, my blog post was a picture of fluffy kitties, which is what you need when you read this book.

The Day She Cried

I have mad K Webster love.  Mad love like I buy everything I can and then read it immediately. Of course, I’m always sad when I’m done reading her books because I’m done. TDSC gave me all the feelz while I was reading it. I’m reasonably sure that I died at some point, but I was able to come back. The basic story is that Courtney and Raven were texting back and forth, with Raven thinking that Courtney was a boy. Courtney’s nasty-ass friend sent information to Raven that mocked her and she committed suicide. Courtney was tried and sued for her part in it. Rowe is Raven’s twin and he’s bound and determined to get back at Courtney. The entire thing is just beautiful and tragic and so, so, so real. K said that this was a really personal story, and you can tell with every word. Make sure that you have a box of tissues sitting next to you when you read this one.

Whispers and the Roars

This is another K Webster book. It is, hands down, the very best love story that I have ever read. I won’t give any details on it, because this is another one that if you read the reviews, you are going to have more information about the story than you want to have. You have to go into this with an open mind and another box of tissues. Told you that I have the mad K Webster love, right?

Sick Fux

This is a book by Tillie Cole. It’s making its rounds through the various dark reading groups I belong to. The days after it came out there were a lot of us talking about it. There are very good reasons for that. This is a really, truly fucked up story. But, there is also a beauty to it and a lightness. The love between Ellis and Heathen is just… Yeah, I don’t know. If you like Alice in Wonderland, you may have some issues with this one, but it’s one that stayed with me for days afterward. Just as a warning, there are some disturbing subject matters and some serious trigger warnings for abuse of children. If that is an issue for you, please read responsibly.

Life of Anna

Marissa Honeycutt’s serialized book LoA is one that you are just about required to read if you read in the dark thriller/erotica/romance genre, especially if you read Indie authors. Most of the people I know who read that genre have read it, and many of us use it as the ruler to measure all other darkness against. It spans several years and some of the absolute worst things that can ever happen to a person. It gets pitch-black in places. It gets darker than pitch-black in places, if you can actually do that. But, it also stays with you. I dreamt about this book. I had to take a break for a couple of days from it. I read the complete series compendium, so I got it all at once. During that couple day break, I read some much lighter stories, and I dreamt of Alex, Anna, and Devin. There aren’t enough trigger warnings for this one, but there also aren’t enough ways for me to tell you about how good it is.

Alright, here are 5 of my Top Ten books of 2017. Remember, they may not have been published in 2017, that’s just when I read them. Although, I think most of these were published this year. Tune in tomorrow for the other 5.

Here’s a pretty picture I found yesterday while looking for something for Rapunzel.

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B. B. Blaque-I’m Sawree

I’m Sawree is B. B. Blaque’s latest release. Unlike some other reviews I’ve written, I am refusing to tell you anything about events or plot of the actual book. All I’m going to do here is post the blurb, including the warning.

★★A VERY DARK & PSYCHOLOGICAL EROTIC-THRILLER
WARNING: Graphic adult content that may be very disturbing to some readers. May contain triggers, proceed at your own risk. This book is extremely dark, please take this warning under advisement before deciding to read.

★NO HERO but 1 EVIL VILLAIN
★NO ROMANCE
★NO HEA OR HFN . . . Happily never after maybe

★★•´¸.•*´¨) ¸.•*¨)

I’m Sawree Reese and one day I happened to find the mutilated bodies of nine people—crazy right? Shit like that changes you into something you never imagined and we all cope in different ways—mine is art

Bloody

Gruesome art

When that doesn’t work I turn to the most evil and sadistic man I’ve ever known—Master Sterling

He has ways of helping me exorcise the demons that are totally heinous, but they work . . . until they don’t

★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★

I’m STERLING—I’m the closest thing to a demon you’ll ever find in a man

I have a vested interest in Sawree Reese that goes well beyond the atrocities I relish in my dungeon.

Some fear me . . . others respect me . . . and those who choose to deny my existence will ultimately pay the price

Sometimes you know the game . . . Sometimes you know the players . . . Then there are times when everything you thought you knew is thrown out the window

Ha, great blurb and warning, right? And trust me, believe the warning. If you don’t like dark, this is most definitely not the right book for you, and B. B. may not be the right author for you. Trust and believe. She writes some of the darkest stuff I’ve read, and considering what I’ve read and reviewed on this blog, what does that tell you. In fact, check out my review of one of her other books here. Whenever I redo my Top Ten darkest and most fucked up books, B. B. will make at least one appearance on the list.

All I’m really going to tell you about this book is that I wanted to know what the fuck she had just done to me. I cried. It spent days and days and days in my head. I had to read light and fluffy afterward because I would likely have run screaming into the night if I hadn’t. And it would’ve been into the night since it was like 11 pm when I finished. It took a couple of days before I could turn back to anything dark and intense.

If you read my blog, you know that this is usually the time I give you the choice to either keep reading and risk spoilers or stop where you are and get none. I’m not giving you the choice today. There is absolutely no spoiler section. None. There isn’t going to be. If you read Sawree and want to talk about it, message me privately. I won’t approve any comments about this book. How about a picture of a fluffy kitty to make it up to you? Everyone likes fluffy kitties.

 

 

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Did you come down here just to see if there were spoilers? I told you there weren’t. Now go buy the book and read it, then revel in the awesome darkness that is B. B. Blaque.

Beautiful Evil: Twisted

Today’s post is all about B. B. Blaque’s newest book, Beautiful Evil: Twisted. The Beautiful Evil series is about Jordan Bishop, which starts in The Monster and ends in The Master. Some of the books are told in an episodic style, from his POV, and are being told as stories to Kash and Colt. They are bikers and show up in her Beautiful Insanity series, about their MC. Bishop teaches them how to be Doms. SNAFU is told from SNAFU’s POV and The Master is happening as we see it. Then we have Twisted. Twisted features Bishop and Kash.

Warning: This story is at times brutal, always dark, and filled with non-con and violence. I may end up talking about some, even before the spoilers, so if that isn’t your cup of tea, stop reading now. You’ve been warned.

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